Dwight Gooden put a gun to his head and considered suicide nearly two years ago after being suspended from baseball for drug use, the New York Yankees pitcher told the New York Daily News.
"I was sitting in the bedroom with a gun in my hand," Gooden told the newspaper in a story for today's editions. "My wife walked in, and I actually had the gun to my head, thinking about pulling the trigger."Gooden, who returned to baseball this year with the Yankees, said the September 1994 incident happened a day after he was suspended by acting commissioner Bud Selig.
"I was so destroyed by that," Gooden said. "I was sitting there with the gun. I'd say, `Go ahead and end it,' but then I'd say, `No, be a man and face up to your responsibilities, your wife and kids.' "
He said his wife, Monica, walked into the room at that time.
"I don't know if I ever would have actually done it, but then my wife walked in and she just freaked," Gooden said. "She started screaming, and she grabbed the gun from me. When I think about it now, it was crazy. The gun was loaded; it could have gone off.
"But she grabbed it from me, and then she ran and called my mom and told her to come over right away. When I think about it, the whole thing was terrifying."
The Daily News said Gooden spoke about the incident because film makers have approached him about making a movie telling his life story.
"It would be the toughest scene in the movie, especially for my wife and for my mother," Gooden said. "I haven't ever talked about this, but it would have to be in the movie if I'm going to be honest."